I am a perfectionist and it is ruining my life. I’ve had terrible bullying both domestically and at school, for years. My parents often neglect me and my peers reject me, in extreme cases, verbally abusing me and ASKING me to die. It’s whatever, it’s almost over, right? I’m graduating in 2 weeks. I…
You’re not a worthless failure and you have a wonderful life ahead of you.
The brain is a very complicated and delicate thing. It can get messed up and be unable to produce any or enough serotonin. This is called a chemical imbalance which is easily treated, very common and nothing to be ashamed of.
It can cause depression, anxiety, panic, obsession, self harm/self hatred, suicidal thoughts, eating disorders, sleeping problems, aggression/rage, anger, phobias, fears, helplessness/hopelessness, hypochondria, ADHD, paranoia, OCD, headaches, lack of interest in things, lack of motivation/ focus and much more.
Ask a dr. for anti-depressants. Sertraline is a good one; most people thrive on it and it has no side effects. With antidepressants, you will be much better, happier, calmer, confident, safer and feel normal. What a difference it makes!
Therapists are mostly a waste of time and money. They aren’t even allowed to prescribe appropriate meds to help you get better. Don’t stop taking the meds once you start to feel better. You need them, so stay on them.
But meds can do only so much. God is the ONLY one who knows what you’re thinking, how you’ve struggled and what you’re going thru. He loves you passionately and wants to be your BFF. He has a super-deluxe custom-made plan for your life that’s beyond anything you ever dreamed of. BUT He waits for us to ask. Invite Him into your heart; ask Him to take over your life and your problems.
Find a big, happy church, attend some groups and have fun. Talk with the pastor or youth pastor; he probably deals with this a lot and will have some good ideas. God loves you more than you can possibly imagine!! 🙂
You don’t have to feel that way. Now I want you to take some time to look at yourself as someone who was created by God to live on this earth so that you can be useful to some group of people who are not as fortunate as you. There are a lot of these people who will be ready to become responsible to you so that they can find their bearings in life. You are a very important person. Don’t mind if no one is listening to you. Think of a small project which you can dedicate your life to and which will help others and put the whole of you into it. When you solve people’s problems, they will begin to come to you and they will listen to you. You can check the resource section to obtain books that will lift up your spirit and get you busy with a great project that will announce you to your society.
Find out what you are good at and begin to do it. You are a champion when you are using the gift that God gave you to help others. I love to write and teach, I don’t feel second class doing this. I feel like a champion because I feel no one can do it better than myself. Find out your gifting and concentrate your efforts on it.