I am a 20 year old female SUFFERING from Bulimia. It started off as a diet which lead to Binge eating Disorder and now it is Bulimia. I have been seeing a psychiatrist for about a year now and I have to admit that it is doing wonders for me. I completely understand why I do it and where it comes from. I now…
I’m 20 years old as well, and I’m also suffering from bulimia. My disorder is not as severe as it was when I first started out, and you’re right, it is gradual… months before I began throwing up, I was working out occasionally. I started to cut back on my food intake until eventually I just started throwing up, at first once a day, then up to 6-7 times a day. Now, thankfully, it’s less frequent, but still a struggle, and one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through.
You’re very lucky that you now have help, because I’m still struggling without help from a professional. Many times I’ve tried to “recover” on my own, but it comes right back. And I’m just like you, I know so much about this disorder, yet I still do it. I’ve had it for 2 and a half years, and already I had to go to the ER last month for chest pains and shortness of breath, and was diagnosed with esophageal spasms. So, I’ve pretty much messed up my esophagus only after being bulimic for 2 and a half years… it’s terrible and scary. Like you, I’m aware of what caused my eating disorder and definitely aware of the damage… it’s a horrible habit to break!
I was just thinking last night how I feel so upset when I come on Yahoo answers and find that people are asking for tips on how to throw up and how to “become bulimic”, when all I do every day is wish this horrible disease was gone. If only they knew what they were really getting into…
Anyway, I wish you the best of luck, keep up with the psychiatrist. I hope to one day have that type of help as well. Though I’m not the best person to take advice from since I’m not even in recovery, I recommend surrounding yourself with people who will give you positive feelings, people who care about you, whether it be friends, family, or a lover… they can help you so much. My boyfriend has been really supportive. Good luck with this fight, I hope you overcome bulimia.
Let him go. Sometimes the familiar is something we hold on to way too tightly. If you want to date and not have a so called boyfriend then do. If you want your ex on the side then do that too. Problem is your sleeping with all the chicks he has slept with plus all the guys they have slept with and STD’s can run a muck in your life. Honestly, not having a guy for a while and only hanging out with your friends might be a good break for you. You can’t need someone and be happy. Want is one thing. Need is another. You have to get past the fear of being alone in order to grow up. It’s very difficult at the stage your in but your going to be just fine. Hang in there and just say NO!
I suggest talking to your psychiatrist about when would be a good time for you to join a support group, or just bring this question up with him directly. I think this is something that is best handled with the help of a professional.
I congratulate you on addressing your problem. It takes a lot of guts and I wish you all the best for a full recovery.
Have you tried EFT or Tapping as it is often called.
You can find out about it by going to Youtube – at least you can see how it works.
I have done a couple of weekend workshops in it and depending on what country you are in I know a lovely lady who lives in Wales who does skype consultations. Haven’t seen her for a while so don’t know how busy she is.
Ask your psychiatrist if he/she knows about it.
I really feel your pain – just add a note to this if you want any more info.
You already said it yourself – you have to find the triggers for binging and purging. What event in your life makes you binge eat and then force yourself to throw up?
Once you identify the triggers, you have to either find ways to avoid them, or new ways to deal with them.
At first I don’t understand how can people have a normal feeling towards natural, non-induced vomiting, but the people who force themselves to vomit!? Honey, puhleezah! You are brave for doing this. HOW? Vomiting is like terrorism, but in the body. It’s the worst thing to mankind!